Every day is one. Every day I face different challenges then the ones I faced the previous day.
With no attacks comes the ability to feel again. Feel freely. Feel emotion with no boundaries, and no fear of passing out.
Anger
Laughter
Sadness
Joy
Stress
Excitement
Fear
Surprise
All without passing out. All with their appropriate equals.
And it's overwhelming. For more then a year I haven't had to deal with the emotions. In the beginning I just had an attack. Towards the end I just stopped. I walked away or restrained myself for my own protection.
And now I don't have either of those endings. I have to deal with the emotions. I have to face the situations. And just like me forgetting my algebra from lack of practice, I haven't yet learned how to filter and feel correctly.
It'll take time. Lots and lots of time.
And changes.
And support.
Good thing I'll get all 3.
TTFN
-Bri
About Me
- Life on Pause
- I started this blog in 2008 so I'd have a place to record my thoughts. I have a sleep disorder called Narcolepsy, and I also have Cataplexy. The Cataplexy causes me to become weak to the point of paralysis in response to sudden emotion, most notably laughter, being startled, sudden anger, etc. This disorder has had a great impact on my life, and this blog is about how I deal with it all. Thanks for taking the time to read, and I hope you enjoy! ~Bri
1 comment:
I am SOOO happy for you, though! It sounds like you've finally found meds that are effective and now you CAN start dealing with the emotional junk that comes along with life.
That doesn't mean it's easy. But you have so much going for you! And you are getting the help and support you need. I know you will be fine.
Lotsa luv to ya kiddo!!!
Laura
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